If you’re reading this, then I survived the short blog hiatus forced upon me when I was stuck at my brother’s house with no internet. It was touch and go there for a while, but I am back! Now, join me as we take a trip back in time.
I am dying right now. Dying! And, I’m not referring to the cold that has taken over my body. I’m talking about the fact that I can’t blog right now! I’m writing this in Word, sitting with my laptop in my brother’s very messy living room.
My name is Ashley, and the last time I blogged was December 24th. It is now December 27th, and this entry has no chance of being posted until at least December 28th, but more likely December 29th.
If you haven’t noticed, I blog almost every single day. I don’t do it out of obligation. Actually, sometimes I force myself to take a few days off from posting so as not to overwhelm you. And, okay, once in a while I worry that I’ll run out of content, but for the most part, I find there just aren’t enough days in the week to say everything I have to say.
It’s like everything creative: the more you put out there, the more you get back. Blog ideas literally—literally literally, not figuratively literally—keep me up at night.
It’s a shame, then, to so often find myself in social situations with nothing to say. And, with nothing to contribute, I zone out, not paying attention to the conversation around me, but thinking instead about my blog, my novel, what people are thinking of me, me me me me.
I hoped that this blog would help me to put myself out there more, and it really has. But, back in those old situations, surrounded by family, I find myself taking on old roles and old habits of keeping my thoughts to myself.
It’s something to work on before I head home again.
But, for now, I miss you dear blog, and especially you, dear blog readers.
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I blog WAY too often. I love it though. Vlog ideas keep me up at night too, it’s silly. I missed your blog. ALSO, I tried vlogging. Check it out if you get a chance.
Welcome back! I don’t know that I could survive that long without the internet without going stir crazy. Eric and I turned down a trip to Belize and I think a (very) small part of that is the ambiguous availability of the internet.
See, your lack of blogging kept many of us awake at night. Hopefully, you’re having a great holiday season.
Going without the internet for that long is a incredibly difficult thing, I certainly understand. And there’s nothing wrong with keeping your thoughts to yourself and not saying much in “social situations.” That means what you do say, like what you write here, is very thoughtful and not just impulsive and off the top of your head.
I’m impressed that you don’t usually worry that you’ll run out of stuff to blog about because I often worry about that, haha. That’s what usually keeps me from updating, but it takes a lot more to stop you!
Blogging may be an addiction but one I have no intention of stopping. I was semi proud of myself for not blogging one day last week. Sad, huh?
I have the same problem in certain social situations. I should start warning people that I am observing their behavior and more than likely, I’ll blog about it. :)
Welcome back!
I feel your pain. I was without internet for one day and I had a minor freak out. Glad you made it through!!
i don’t blog enough. i had big plans for my blog and i over christmas, and i thought i was going to spend the majority of my time at home catching up on some long overdue blog posts that have been buzzing around my head.
i barely managed one, and i posted it right before my flight back. and it took 5 days to write.
disappointing performance, i’d say. especially since i even have one post ready to go that i typed in ms word on my way home for thanksgiving. copy and paste is hard.
LOL You’re as obsessed with your blog as i am. Did you ever consider getting paid for it? Just saying.
I do feel you on the withdrawal symptoms when there’s no internet in sight!! It’s so sad, no?
i don’t blog as much as you do but i sure do think about my stories as well while the rest of the world is busy with their conversations. I just look at them and ask myself, what about these people can i write about?
I completely understand. I’ve had internet access, for the most part, but no private time to use it. I’ve been secreting myself away to little corners at night with the laptop to let out those things I can’t say to my family, and those things I can’t say to myself. I feel your pain. May you find your muse again soon. I’ll be waiting.
I almost posted twice today. I think that is bordering on obsession. “Bordering,” who am I kidding?
It’s definitely easy to slip back into old habits. Sometimes I feel like a different person when I’m at home vs. when I’m at school. I hope you get better soon at long last!
Yep, I can definitely identify with this one Ashley!!! When I temporarily lost my computer to a trojan horse virus for a week last February, I was practically suffering from withdrawal symptoms!
Thanks Liz. I did check out your vlog. I hope you’ll do it again!
Ha ha. I like to take short vacations from the internet, but anything prolonged sounds like torture.
I swear the more you post, the more ideas come to you. Writing about one thing always leads me to several more topics.
Thanks foster. I’m enjoying the holidays mostly for the time off.
I agree. But, blogging is a healthy habit, right?
Thanks. My iPhone bridges the gaps, but nothing compares to real internet on my laptop.
Ha ha. It seemed annoying to copy and paste the few posts I’d written when I was without internet.
I’ve definitely thought about it, but I keep putting it off. I’ll probably have to ask you advice one of these days. :)
Ha ha. I wonder if the people in my life are paranoid I’ll write about them. Thanks for checking out my blog!