. . . but it means a lot to other people. They might think you don’t care.”
The other night I got a super casual mini-lecture from my dad about returning people’s calls.
He’s right.
I can be incredibly selfish.
I was going to post just that. A short thought with a sharp finish. But, it was the night before my birthday–my 25th birthday–and that’s no time for negativity. And, I’m rarely short of words to put to paper.
So, I decided not to mope and not to beat up on myself. I decided just to reach out to people in the way that’s embarrassingly unnatural to me. I decided to reach out to people who don’t even reach out to me. Because I’ve heard through the grapevine that it might mean something to them.
I don’t know if it’s the right thing to do. Maybe it’s a mistake to put myself out there again. But, maybe they don’t mean it in the same way that I don’t mean it. I care a lot more than I let anyone know.
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You definitely shouldn’t beat yourself up about that, or anything really. I also think you’re going about things in the right way. You are putting yourself out “there” (wherever that is) and that’s all you can do. If you put good-ness out into the world, it will return to you in some way, and that’s better than never putting yourself out there?
I don’t know, that’s what I believe and I very very well could have no idea, haha.
Your dad has a lot of wisdom. Don’t worry, one way or another it tends to be passed on.
‘Tis the season, after all. I need to make a few phone calls myself.
i like your train of thought here. hope the good karma works for you!
I hate calling people back. I don’t really enjoy talking on the phone.
Ooh – that’s one of my problems too. I’m horrible with replies.
I suck at that too and your dad is right. Well, just found something else to add to my New Years list.