You’re Emo, Charlie Brown

If you read my post last Friday, then you know I was feeling a little blue. I spent that previous night dragging myself around work, appearing cheerful, but actually feeling like the wind had been knocked out of me. It seemed like too much effort just to hold my body up straight, so I was walking around the library kind of slumped over. I told my friend that I felt like Charlie Brown (or George Michael Bluth), and because this same friend and I have been joking about how I’m so emo now that I wear black nail polish, she replied, “You’re like an emo Charlie Brown.” That put a visual in my head, and later I googled “emo Charlie Brown” just for funsies. This is the picture I found, and I had to share it.

I’m feeling better now, and I want to thank you all for your kind comments. I wasn’t entirely comfortable makng such a whoa is me post, but it was helpful just to admit to myself and you all that I’m going through something. I’m always really hesitant to admit to others when I’m not happy. I guess because I don’t like providing explanations, especially when I don’t have any. I always feel the need to conclude with, “but, it’s really not that bad!” And, it’s not, but it is something.

Despite my recent doom and gloom mood, there were some bright spots this last week.

1. I saw Adorable Boy for the first time in several weeks. He’s actually more adorable–cuter and nicer–than I remembered. If you’re wondering why I don’t talk much about dating, it’s because there’s not much going on! I’m picky and not interested in wasting my time on people I’m not really interested in. So, I’ll probably die alone. No, not alone. I’ve already made retirement plans to live like the Golden Girls with my best friends.

2. The Office premiered this week! I didn’t get to watch it on Thursday night, because I had to work. Stupid responsibility! I finally saw it on Friday, and I was really happy with the episode. I think it’s going to be a good season. And, Toby. Oh, Toby. (More on TV tomorrow.)

3. The debate sealed it for me. I am loving this election. The consequences are still great, but I don’t feel quite as sick about the whole thing as I did in 2004. Maybe because we have a better chance this time around. My dad and I admitted to each other when we spoke on Saturday that we’re enjoying this election on an entertainment level, as well as a hopeful for change because we desperately need it level.

More and more all the time Barack Obama is becoming my candidate. I was always going to vote for him, but now I’m excited about his potential presidency. No one can turn things around as quickly as we’d all like, but he’s a candidate I agree with on most issues, and I think he’s very capable. At the debate, I was particularly impressed by his ease of intelligence, and his grace. He stood in stark contrast to McCain who was hesitant at first, and rambled and smirked throughout. No question who I want representing me to the rest of the world. But, to be sure, I don’t like Obama because he’s not McCain. I like him because I agree with him (with his assessment of the problems, and many of his proposed solutions), and I think he’s a good candidate for president.

I’m really looking forward to the VP debate on Thursday, though again (stupid job!), I won’t be able to watch it live. I was impressed for the millionth time by Biden when he responded to the question, “This is pretty much going to be a breeze for you. Will you use your kid gloves with Palin?” with a simple, “I would never act so condescendingly” (paraphrased). And, his reaction to all of McCain’s “Senator Obama doesn’t understand . . . I’ve been there, I know!” was to say, “I’ve been there too. It doesn’t mean you know” (paraphrased).

4. Finally, a literal bright spot in my week: I got my 88 Palette in the mail. That’s eyeshadow, if you don’t know. And, it’s so, so pretty. My terrible iPhone picture doesn’t do it justice, but see for yourself.