Here I am again. I feel like my fitness/weight loss posts have been a series of confessions and realizations about which I feel kind of ridiculous. They’ve all been honest, I think. But, I’m too much of a perfectionist and I care too much about what people think of me to say that I’m going to do something and then not do it. It’s embarrassing.
My honest assessment right now is that I’ve been coasting all summer, and I’m mostly okay with that for now. This is very unlike me. Normally, I’m too freaked out about how fast my life is passing to ever feel comfortable just putting in the bare minimum. If I’m not putting full effort into something, then I’m beating myself up about it.
Smell the roses? I don’t know how to do that. But, I am doing it. This summer I’ve had a blast all while not stressing about the things that occupy my mind the rest of the year. Of course, part of the time I’ve been stressing about not stressing, but I’m finally getting over even that. I’m not sure I’m making any sense. What all of these abstractions amount to is that I’ve relaxed the diet and the exercise at least until I get back from vacation later in August. And, I’m okay with that. I think.
But (because there’s always a “but” with me), I do have one goal. I love to run on the trail by my parents’ house. That’s where I started running, and my head often goes back there. I love to run, and I’m in decent running shape now, but it still takes a lot of effort to drag myself outside to get going. My goal while I’m in Washington is just to run.
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Running, just like with an exercise, takes a little time to become addicting. Once you do it day in and day out, you’ll find yourself doing it more and wanting to do it more.
yeah, for me the hardest part about running is actually getting up and going outside. Then I like it…usually!