It’s not really my dream job. I guess that would be getting paid to teach theology or write novels or shop online. But, it’s my dream job for the circumstances I find myself in right now. It’s another library position, but not at my school. What makes this seem like my dream job is the high wage, large number of hours, and close proximity. I’d have to work until midnight, but that would free me up to sit in on classes and take on research assistant positions during the day. The contract would only be for 9 months, so I won’t have to find some way to explain that I have no idea where I’ll be heading this time next year. Did I mention the high wage?
My sister does this weird thing where she doesn’t tell people what she’s doing until she already has the results. So, we didn’t know she’d applied to a university until she was already accepted, and we didn’t know she was studying to be a realtor until she was almost finished with that too. I tell her she’s very strange for this, but I sometimes do the same thing. If you never tell people you’re taking a chance, then you never have to explain or even react when you fail. You don’t have to admit that you really wanted something, and now you’re really disappointed not to get it. And, the charade continues that you’re perfect and content.
I don’t want to be that way. I want to be more honest with other people and with myself, even if the result is me sometimes looking like an big idiot. Plus, I think when you put what you want out into the world, you get better results. I don’t mean the things you want will come flooding forward in any kind of a fated, magical way, but that you’ll be focused on what you want and other people will be able to help you, because they too will know what you want.
So, hello world! I want this job. I want to be accepted into a good PhD program. I want to publish a novel. And, I want this from Sephora!
UPDATE!: I have an interview Friday at 10 am.
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I think that’s a good way to do things – be honest, put it out there, and see what comes back! If you have an honest dialogue going with yourself and others then that helps make a sounding board for what you really want. Good luck on the interview!!
Good luck at the interview! I’ll be keeping my fingers crossed for you!!
Being honest is the way to go – but I understand your sister’s view of not wanting to explain certain things. Nonetheless, I am sure you will do quite well.