Actually, it is 3 am, and I’m not particularly lonely, but when I thought to myself that it was 3 am, I automatically thought of the Matchbox 20 song. I don’t remember the last time I was awake at 3 am. It’s been a long time. I’ve been having a hard time falling asleep all week, but I turned the lights off at 1 am tonight (or morning, I guess), and I just couldn’t find sleep. I am so awake right now that I’m sure someone must have slipped me some caffeine or speed or something. I don’t know what it is.
It’s so frustrating to not be able to sleep. I don’t know how people deal with this on a regular basis. More than the physical need for rest, I feel the mental need to take a break. I avoid all-nighters as much as I can, but every once in a while, either out of absolute necessity or because I’ve forgotten how much they suck, I will stay up all night. The next day, after not getting nearly as much done as I’d hoped, I feel very unstable. My legs feel like jell-o and I’m likely to burst into tears at any moment. I’m giving myself Fight Club flashbacks right now.
I guess since I’ve given up on sleep for now, I’ll work on the novel. If I’m still up at 6, then I think I’ll go for a walk.
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I don’t like staying up later either, these days I pass out before 11 every night. Makes me feel old.
On a side note, the last sentence fragment “I think I’ll go for a walk” totally just reminded me of the beginning of the Brady Bunch song Sunshiny Day, and now it’s stuck in my head.
ha, Thanks for that.
I was of course thinking of that very Brady Brunch song when I wrote that line! It’s been stuck in my head for a couple weeks. Maybe I’ve passed it on to you! Sorry!