Today is my half birthday. Yeah, that’s a thing. It’s the six month mark between one birthday and the next. I’d never heard of it until I baby-sat for this kid whose parents gave him presents on his half birthday. I hated baby-sitting (loved reading Baby-sitter’s Club books, though). I never pay much attention to my half birthday, but this one is different—it’s BIG. In exactly six months, I’m turning 25.
I’m freaking out a little, and though I’d like to pretend my reasons for freaking out are different and more respectable than the normal reasons for freaking out when you turn a year older, they’re not. I’m running around thinking, “What have I done with my life? I should be further along!” In high school, I thought I’d be married by the time I turned 26. It’s not looking good, and I don’t think I want that anymore anyway. But, something in me thinks that if I don’t live up to my high school dreams, then I’ve failed. Thankfully, I didn’t have that many dreams when I was in high school.
I still think I’ll feel better about turning 25 if I accomplish some things first (though, in all honesty, I doubt it will make a difference). So, here I go with more goals that aren’t really any different than any other list of goals I’ve made this year. Wish me luck!
(If you’re 25+, try not to be too annoyed with me right now.)
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Thanks for the add on “20something bloggers”. I’m excited for your half birthday- I’ve been celebrating mine since I was a kid. Though usually it consisted of “Mom can I have friends over? Pleeease? It’s my half birthday!”. Now, I just make my friends at work share a dessert with me at lunch. Nonetheless, enjoy your day.
Happy half-birthday! Ohh, I loved the Baby-Sitter’s Club.
- Amy
Hi Ashley! I’m 28 and I am not at all annoyed by you. I remember freaking out too. I am definitely going through the “what have I accomplished?” thing but I try to get over it and just live in the moment, something that is very very hard for me.
This is my first comment on your blog but I have read almost all your posts I believe and its been super easy because I identify with you on so many points.
Keep it up girl and happy half birthday :)
They gave him presents on his HALF birthday? What a terror he must have been!
When I was very young, 25 was always my “old” age (I don’t know why). I’m still 2+ years away, but I can identify with your freaking out.
I wouldn’t get too caught up in artificial goals, or trying to be the person you think you should be. I think losing 20 lbs. and working on a novel are awesome accomplishments; a lot of people have those dreams, but they never have enough courage to start. You’re probably farther ahead than you think.