I do this with my journal too. I write pages and pages, and never mention the things that are actually happening in my life. I’m not sure why I do this. I guess I’m a big picture person who finds many of the details of life boring. But, details are important and they affect me greatly. One reason for starting this blog was to force myself to be more open with my life—to talk about it instead of keeping it all in my head. So, here I go. Here are some things that are happening in my life right now.
- I work at the library on campus. I’m here now. Like, right this second. That’s where I’m writing from. I’ve worked here for almost two years, but my contract will be up at the end of June, and for financial aid reasons, it won’t be renewed.
- So, I need a new job or two. For some reason, I’ve been very lazy about this. I put a bunch of resumes out there, but I’ve done very little follow up. It’s partly laziness, and partly avoidance rooted in something deeper. Anyway, I don’t really have a choice. I need to make money.
- I’m preparing to move into a box. Well, not a box, but a studio apartment. I’ll be living in the same building I do now, but in a much smaller space. I think I’ve gotten rid of everything I can. Now it’s just a matter of packing it up and moving.
- I’ve been working a lot on the novel. It’s amazing how much progress I can make when I just sit down and write. I think I can finish this summer, but I’d really like to finish by the end of July. My doubts grow about whether it will ever be good enough for publication, but I’m not going to let those fears keep me from writing.
- I’m still plugging along with my weight loss. I’m down 21 lbs., and have about 7-10 lbs. to go. I haven’t been as motivated at the gym lately, and I’m not sure why. But, no matter what, I’m determined to keep going. I’d really like to be done losing by the end of the summer. In the meantime, I’m getting used to being smaller.
- I’ve been taking a lot of spontaneous walks lately. That’s what I do when I’m anxious.
- What am I anxious about? Mostly a lot of things that I can’t do anything about right now. I’ll be applying to PhD programs this fall, so I’m very nervous about that. Soon I’ll have to make a decision about where to go and what to do next.
- I really want to go home to Washington to visit, and my parents keep telling me they want me to come home too. My plan is to go in August, so that I can attend my cousin’s wedding while I’m there. I just feel like a I need to go home for a while, but what I really need to do is stay here and work.
- I should be writing my Master’s thesis, but I’m working on the novel instead.
- I keep rereading parts of the Twilight books, because I’m really a tween and not 24!
- I’ve always been a person with a few close friends instead of many acquaintances. That’s never bothered me much, but now that my friends are so spread out across the country, and I’m not busy with school, I feel a real lack of people in my life. It’s like my circle of people just keeps getting smaller. I hope that the job I find will help me to broaden my friend base again.
- I’m really happy right now, but also very stressed and anxious.
- Oh, and I’m doing this blog thing. I enjoy this type of writing, but I’m not sure how much anyone enjoys reading it. For now, I’ll just keep going.
And it is as I feared: my life is terrifically boring sounding! I should throw in a car chase or a summer fling just for fun!
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I would love to write a novel. My only problem is that I never seem to start. I have had the desire for some time but something else always seems to take up my time and I never work at it.
If you’re going to grad school and have all the hobbies you mentioned before, you’re not as average as you think. :-) But I too am an introvert at heart and sometimes have problems explaining myself and what’s interesting about me.
gman: Yeah, you really have to make it a priority, because it’s just so much work. I often feel guilty for spending hours writing instead of doing other things, but for now I’m loving it.
greekphysique: There’s definitely a self-depreciating tone to “average” here, but it’s not all bad. I think I’ll write more about it some time. Thanks for checking out my blog. :)
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